The Depths of Despair

The miserableness

hovering at the edges of my psyche,

waits to break through

sending me cascading

into an abyss of mental anguish

 

I turn into a puddle

of anguish and sobbing despair

Any good thoughts of hope

are shattered like a broken mirror,

the shards scattered across the floor

 

I pull myself together

for a short time,

then something else

sends me crashing

into a blubbery, messy pool

 

I’m caught

in the downward spiral

with no way out

my mind screaming with futility

I just can’t deal anymore!

 

Things going wrong,

dealing with new technology,

the lack of good customer service

being told to “Deal with it,”

feeling taken advantage of

 

I try to focus

on how my kitties need me,

and would they, could they

find another loving home

should I succumb to my despair.

 

I’m at my wits’ end,

not sure how much

I have left in me

to enable me to go on

When do I pull the plug?