Grief Compounded

My heart
shattered, broken
shrouded in grief
so overwhelming
the shards continue
to cut deeply
 
My mind
gagged by strangling sadness
any joy within
has been pounded
into a murky congealing swill
 
My entire being
consumed by grief
of one thing after another
going wrong this year
I’m not sure
I can ever recover
 
Is it possible
that being broken
and put back together
so many times
throughout my life
that not it’s possible
these pieces may never
be glued back together?
 
I’ve forgotten
what happy feels like
and wonder
if I can ever feel
happy again
 
And, if I do get better
will I ever feel
totally wholehearted
Time will tell
I have little hope these days.
 
--Sasha Wolfe